i have trust issues. i don’t trust people, i don’t trust life, i dont’ trust promises, i don’t trust words, i don’t trust actions, i don’t trust me.
i suppose where there is human and life involved, i have no trust in certainty, because life is uncertain by default. nobody knows nor can foretell the future, thus there’s nothing that is for sure, thus everything changes, thus if you have expectations that certain things will go your way, or will “happen like this”, you have to be very prepared to be wrong.
i dont know how my mind’s wired, but i think ive gone through enough to be cynical about life. a girl who believed in fairy tales and good things will happen to good people, somehow got brainwashed and decided it’s better to be practical. haha.
how good can people be, in difficult situations or when faced with temptations? we ain’t no angels, but humans. although i hate it when ppl use “we are born to make mistakes” to justify their wants and desires, or when they commit “calculated sins”.
in the end, it’s easier to trust no one, so we won’t be disappointed. but still i can never convince myself to not give others a 100% trust before they prove me wrong. i guess afterall, the little innocent girl oblivious to the evil world hasn’t really died in me.
