Think I’ve just graduated as a caffeine addict. I realised having too much caffeine results in many random distorted thoughts.
Things that matter and things that don’t matter pop in and out of my head. Well, it s not really a tough thing since my mind’s wired this way, with or without caffeine. But probably something’s not right lately. Losing motivation and fairy-tale hopes that I gained sometime ago.
Everything about life seems to be a challenge now. I know we r supposed to take on them to grow, life s supposed to be hard by default. But, I’m sure it’s supposed to be a bit easier or at least smooth with tough times once a while. Or is it me. Like they skipped a step and didn’t challenge-proof my mind when I was born, just to see the difference.
Or maybe I’m just a person who thinks a lot and thinks too deep. Way too deep. I can read into things, have right intuition about things, expect things which proves me right in the end. Most times I keep it inside just hoping I’m not right eventually. Well of course I’m not always right, but that s a few rare cases, and I get a perverse sense of happiness and hope when my intuition s proven wrong. How sick is that.
Oh well, perhaps I need to retune my expectations n wants. But really I don’t think I expect that much from life or people. Just some meaning and simplicity will do. When you experience the joy and peace in simplicity, everything superficialends up being a turn off. I don’t know if it s a blessing or otherwise to have experienced it bcos it s really quite hard to survive in a complicated environment.
Everything wil be alright in the end. If it’s not alright, it’s not the end.
