lunch time thoughts

chee chiong fun for lunch..yumyum. 3 more days to payday, sigh. cant believe im starving for money. totally hate this feeling (yes, ive mentioned in a thousand times, just reinforcing).

i was just thinking about smtg. isn’t it amusing why some ppl think others treat them like crap, when their own actions are crap too. they say “do unto others what you want others to do unto u”. that sentence is one of those i live by. if u treat others like sh*t, dont expect others to treat you like a gem. simple as that.

hmm..a sudden thought. let’s list my motivation to come to work every morning.. money (duh), good cheap coffee across the street (yes, for a coffee slave like me, it’s very very important.)..to go to gym.. lack of politics (for now.).. ok, i think that’s it. oh god, that’s bad aint it. actually been experimenting with ideas..the ideas of doing own biz are coming bk… bringing in madeinthailand stuff here.. or perhaps a blogshop, but i need to find smtg unique.. imagine being able to wake up whatever time i want, sitting at a coffeeplace, working frm my laptop, go to gym anytime, swim when there’s sun.. oooo. damn. stop it.

flea fly flea

had quite a happening weekend…

fri night was fun.. right after work, mr ho n i chiong to jb, wanting to avoid the peak hour jam.. luckily not much cars since we went via 2nd link..

arrived at permas jaya ard 6plus7.. went2 makan lok lok!! i also dun understand what’s so fascinating about eating food on a stick, but it’s just fun. haha. the chilli sauce was good too! and then..the best part…durians! wohoooo.. craving for durians since forever.. besides the durians in mysia’s waaaay cheaper..  we had the mao shan wang with some friends.. yum yum..but it felt too little to me..haha.. endless tummy for durians. after satisfying our stomach, went bk n zzz with tv..

sat n sun.. we had our flea market at tampines.. i did it twice with my family in tamp a year ago..  kinda miss the feeling of “be your own boss” .. so decided we should give it a shot, and at the same time earn some allowance too. it was fun for sure! mr ho somehow became the soft toys IC.. lol.. i did the clothes n some japalang thingy.. we shared the space with grace n her lil sisters helpers, so it had quite a good atmosphere. i really like doing flea markets actually, the sitting around people-watching, selling your own stuff with pride, helping people save money in a way.. though definitely selling the stuff wayyyy cheaper than it actually cost. $2 for a $15 dress i bought? u must be kidding. but that’s what happens when price war starts there. anyway it’s 2nd hand and i m not planning to wear it anymore too.. just getting rid of stuff.

so many children around. really cutie pies stumbling about, attracted by the soft toys on sale, esp with someone like mr ho smiling at them and bribing with the soft toys.. i thought he looked abit like santa claus..lol (ops. sorry!) proud of my santa claus..ohya hor.. santas claus go “ho ho ho”..hehe..

sunday was a bad day..

went to east coast for some wind, sitting at the breakwater absorbing too much sea salt vapour (if there’s such a thing), walked from marine parade library to big splash.. when it started to drizzle.. not a good sign, when you are having a flea market in an hour’s time..

in the end, when we got there, it was drizzling too, but we still displayed half of our items cos i thought the clouds would pass. but nooooooo.. all of a sudden it started pouring! we were so kanchiong, hands over legs, legs over hands trying to keep the stuff and move it under shelter.. n waited for the rain to pass….with some of the clothes dirtied by the rain etc., i had to down the price somemore.. not too bad..sales started coming in, and it was more like wanting to get rid of the stuff at any price! haha.

rain stopped and we continued our business till closing time.. a fulfilling weekend with some extra cash to spare. yes!

 

save the world’s sad & helpless creatures

been a while.. nothing much at work..in fact, it’s really quite mentally tiring..bcos i do close-to-nothing all day.. feels very useless.. so i have to remind myself to think of the money instead.. gosh. u will be surprised how tiring that is!

anyways.. this week.. we watched The Cove on Wed cos i had free tix from ACRES..it’s for a ‘movement’ Save the World’s Saddest Dolphins..the 25 dolphins Resort World captured..

I watched bits of it before when it was first released.. but this time, sitting through the documentary with the scenes flashing right in front of me, hearing the dolphins’ cries.. my heart ached and broke. i’ve always despised pp who do unethical things for the sake of money, and pp who take advantage of the weak.. i seriously find them disgusting and a disgrace to human race.. i was so angry when i watched the show, i felt like throwing stuff at the screen..

scamming others to eat dolphin meat, bringing it into schools as compulsory meals..(pardon my language, but it’s a real fucked-up doing).. they are practically killing their own pp for money.. imagine their own children end up with mercury poisoning, (dammit, i can’t believe they never thought about that!)..

well i supposed one could always say the show is biased, siding the activists etc. true, but personally i never thought it’s a good idea to go against nature. animals are animals for a reason, some are born to be pets and others not.. 2ndly.. demand n supply.. if there is no commercial reason and publicity, there’s less demand, thus less supply, n thus less fucked up things happening to our world.

same rationale i use for being a vegetarian.. well i know i can’t save the earth by me alone being a vegetarian.. but at least i won’t contribute to the harm. if i eat ham & bacon for breakkie, 2chicken wings for lunch, bak kut teh for dinner.. that’s 4 animals killed for my food in a day.. multiply it by 365, that’s 1460 animals.. plus n minus.. i don’t think i can live with that thought.. if you see animals in their natural state, they are wonderful creatures..not meant to suffer in cages and live in anticipation of their death. id better stop my preaching. haha.

dolphins.. ive got a bro who’s a trainer.. n it’s a half half thing i feel about captivity.. though the stronger half leans towards freedom. ive experience freedom and i know that feeling is the most liberating and makes every thing worthwhile. if i can go where i want to, live life how i want to, stop when i want to, no rules, no master, no fear… it’s amazing.. the feeling i can tell u is awesome..

yes, perhaps there are cases where captured animals die after they are released into the wild, as they are unable to adapt n have lost their natural survival instincts..but i find this reason insufficient to justify their loss of freedom.

1. if we further encourage n glamorize captivity with zoos, animal sanctuaries etc. there will be more demand, n thus more supply needed. in the end, the cycle will never break, more animals lose their instincts, lose their natural beauty, lose their family, n the whole nature process is screwed up. all for the entertainment and “education” of humans.. how selfish.

2. if they are not captured and conditioned to a close environment, they would not face the issue of “inability to adapt” in the event they are released to nature. isn’t it sad to not know where u actually belong and are capable of doing?

3. if they are not protected like in zoos etc., they are open to danger in the wild. but that’s nature. it’s the circle of life. food chain n everything.. bcos of the danger, they develop their survival instincts.. all these are what is supposed to be.. so why do humans always interfere with nature for their own gain? if god exists, im sure he didn’t plan for zoos and animal entertainment really.

4. all these killing and imposing suffering encourage pp to think “they dont matter and are only animals”..it’s easy to apply the same degree of cruelty to their fellow beings too.. or perhaps one day animals would just attack humans and eat us up the same way, bcos “they dont matter and are only humans, stupid creatures blinded by money”.. haha that ll be quite a scene.

okay enough ramblings.. just my opinion. everyone’s entitled to their opinion, as long as it’s not against your conscience.

anyhow last night was quite gd. we went for a meditation session.. been a while since i meditated. remember i used to wake up 5.45 am to meditate before i went to college.. haha. well.. had quite a bit difficulty at first to focus since my mind is so used to running all over the place! but it got better.. after that was a very clear and light feeling.. felt like my mind did an “empty cache”.. but its funny bcos when u medtiate, ur mind is so clear n conscious that whatever bad feelings or fear one has, they starts to “attack”.. the feelings were overwhelming..did my best to overcome them..

should start the habit of meditating again.. good for spiritual health..n helps to sleep better too!

help help *yawn*

oh my god..this is really quite tough..trying my best to fight the zzz monster.

can’t help it, when i have already done all i’m supposed to, and  now waiting for time to pass.. 2.5 hr more…